i have decided to commit to a 52 week self portrait project.
this will be my hardest project to date... for me.
i like behind the lens.
it wasn't always this way.
i used to like photos of myself. a long long time ago.
i have gained and lost and regained weight.
i live in comfy "mommy" clothes (meaning stained and stretchy), though recently i have made an effort to have a few nicer items to wear.
i wear little to no make-up.
my essentials are face cream and smith's rosebud lip balm always.
perhaps some masacra on a date night.
i do nothing to my hair; no color, no styling products, not even a hairdryer, nada. i cut it myself. short.
i have good teeth. :) i like my smile. that's a start.
i am not sure what i really want from this project... self acceptance, self change, or just simply forcing myself to do it. any and all of those things would be good.
i DO know i want my children to have high self esteem. how can i instill it, if i don't practice it myself?
and so i begin.
a study in self.
who knows, maybe a little self love will enter.