it has been a 'mild' winter, as far as winters go up here, that is undoubtably good. but still it is cold and damp and gray a lot of the time and just LONG. i am ready for green grass and buds, and warmer temps and playing outside and taking long walks and not freezing. it was bound to happen. heck i made it all the way to mid feb before my first gripe. i think that is pretty good... for me. i am sure my lack luster attitude is also in part to my healing that has been less than smooth since surgery. it has been a roller coaster ride of secondary infections and problems with the everyday processes of your body that should be "natural" and mine are so NOT natural these days. to be honest i am worried. i really had no choice but to get all this work done, but now i worry that perhaps i was not fixable. maybe all i need is more time. it has only been 3 weeks, but still i worry. i try and put on the good face, but inside i feel out of control, unwell, and unsure.
so today i look for comfort in the words of a very wise bear... maybe you too need his words.
“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." - winnie the pooh