his eyes all puffy from sleep.
he told his daddy he wanted me to come see him in his bed.
he then asked in this teary voice to please stay home.
"please mommy i want to stay home with you and casey. i miss you. i don't want to go. the playground is too crowded."
(enter my waning game face as i said these words.)
"oh but you will have fun! you will learn a new song and can come home and teach it to me! you will play, and your new friends would miss you! ( all words i am supposed to say but sound hollow and empty even to me.)
no dice. no fooling him today.
daddy did get him to get dressed by making it a fun race, while i got his breakfast ready.
he ate and put on his jacket and we walked out to the bus stop.
he then again looked at me...
"please mommy i don't want to gooooooo."
i hoped that shiny yellow bus would bring even a small smile since yesterday's smile was so big, but no. this morning it brought wet eyes and a very sad little boy, while me and my game face (i hate that face) walked him to the bus steps and told him i would see him soon. and my heart broke all over the place as i know his did too, and the worst part was i was the one breaking his.
oh kellen mommy is so sorry.
mommy loves you SO much.
and i miss you more than you can ever know.
morning day 3 sucks